Living in FEAR

I'm living like the frozen deer in the headlights, waiting for the closet of financial shoes to drop! I'm so sick of listening about the economy, but I just can't get myself to turn off the radio or turn off the news. Everywhere I turn- radio, TV, internet, conversations in the stores- it's the main topic of conversation. Its so suffocating!

And why isn't' the "War Against Terror" being talked about, other than a reference about how much in US $$$$ it's costing us. If they bring the soldiers home, what will they come home to? It's Desert Storm but worse. There are no jobs for them to come back home to so they are better off financially staying put (in the service, not in a war). And now Pakistan is back in the news? Pakistan? Iraq? Iran? Afghanistan? Georgia? Russia? Somalia? We need to concentrate on the US. We can't even control the crime and gangs here. What makes the US gov think they can control another country? And I STRONGLY mean CONTROL.

I feel like I live pretty conservatively, but each and every company is affected by this "economic downturn". Let's call it what is really is...a depression. How far are we going to fall before we hit bottom? We're paying for those who haven't lived conservatively in the past 5+ years. Yet we have to BAILOUT everyone because if we don't, they will drag us all down the economic black hole. Where is the accountability? Where is the responsibility? This is so big that we still have to coddle those who blame others instead of looking at themselves for their situation. Wake up people.

Am I done venting? Probably not. Just fair warning for the future.

Back at Ladies BC last night. And of course we were running! Ha! It felt good that I was sweating BECAUSE I was running. Yes my mantra is "I hate running with a passion" but when I'm deprived of something, that's the one thing I want.

I miss Eric's class, my friends, the friendly competition ...I just miss it. Not that the Ladie's BC is bad. The level of compassion and support is nice but its just different and change is hard sometimes.

The push ups I did also sucked. I had to go down to my knees much sooner that I wanted to. And the situps? I used to be able to pump those out-no problem. Now I have to take push hard to complete.

Thanks Kel & Hope for concerns about my periformus. Its so frustrating having to deal with this. And now my left Achilles is getting tight. Yes I'm taking ibuprofen and I brought the triggerball to work. No that won't help my Achilles unless I want to roll around on the floor at work so that will just have to wait.

Last night I had to suck it up, learned to baby it and get a ride down before it prolonged recovery even longer. That was frustrating but last night I let my injury dictate my pride and not the other way around.