So last night was the first night of the bootcamp cycle. It was nice to see so many people out there. I'm doing the women's bootcamp, at least for a bit, until my leg feels better.

That said, during the warmup lap last night, oh, about 150 M into it, I felt a pop at the back of my leg. DAMM! Ok here's the rant. HOW MUCH LONGER IS THIS GOING TO GO ON?!? I know I'm not resting it. I know I'm not doing EVERYTHING I can to make this go away. But really! OMG! How much longer is this going to last! I roll, I take ibueprofen. Now really, I what to know how much longer I have to put up with this SHIT!

It's my ego and my pride that kept me limping for the rest of the lap. And for the 800M at the end. My mind kept telling me to walk. Just stop and walk. Give it a rest so it can fully heal. But my mind doesn't always win the argument. So I hobbled along, knowing that I might be making the recovery take even longer. Ego isn't always a good thing.

I couldn't get comfortable last night. Finally broke down and gave Beth a call. Can't wait until tomorrow. I'm hoping she's the help I need. I'll see how I feel after her magic massage works my body over. Maybe that's all I need. I'm going to keep telling myself this.

Am I really done for the year? No Inaugural Pasadena Half? No AR? I'm not dead yet!

Watching from the sidelines is hard to do

Friday night-no crossfit for me. It was a VERY bad day at work, got home late, and just needed space. It was also a good time to give the hamstring more rest. I didn't even want to meet for dinner because I didn't want to hear all the stories about crossfit. Its a bit of self-pity. But hunger won over and I walked over to meet the Cross-N-Nosh gang. I'm glad I did since the friendship and comraderie is always comforting.

So Saturday when the marathoners were doing a 10-13 mile run, I was left behind. D went off to run and I was in the house alone...up at 6 am...what to do. I told people I would ride today. Do I ride and be accountable for myself? Or do I make up a bunch of excuses not to do anything but sit in front of the TV drinking my coffee. Damm that accountability thing (no really-its a good thing).

So I'm on my bike at 7am. Do I go towards the dam, or towards Pasadena? Hmmm what choices! I'm out the driveway, turn right, and I guess I'm off to ride the dam. On the way there, I'm thinking this isn't the same as running. It's way to easy to get to the destination. You can change gears, or just coasting you still gain distance. When you're running, if your legs stop, you don't move (unless you're doing the fall down the hill and roll maneuver). But overall, you just stop. My mind kept going back to E and bootcamp/crossfit-you make it as hard or as easy of a workout as you want. OK keep the legs moving. Keep them moving at a quicker pace. Hey my legs never move this fast when I'm running :)

Did I say it was way to easy? I changed my mind on the way back. The nice breeze if I were running became those dreaded headwinds on the bike. Uphill, headwinds, the back half of the ride...I was pedalling and my 16-18 mph there became 11-14 mph back. But going that slow had it's good points. I could enjoy the water in the "river" flowing, yes flowing! How nice a ride it was. Then my thought went to the fact that I rode over there and my car wasn't were it normally would be - at the park. I had to ride back home! I had a downhill section on the way to the dam, right? Wasn't there a hill I had to go up? Did I remember right? Yup.

23 miles, 1:32... but still a nice day to ride and I was happy about that.