10.25 miles - 1:56:58
The run felt good-as good as 10 miles will feel. The shoes felt good. Pasadena Half next weekend. Good to go, I hope.
Mantra for next weekend. Trust the training...trust the training...
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I can't wait until the Pasadena Half is over with. It's not that the anticipation is killing me. It's that I'm tired. I'm tired of thinking of runs. I'm tired of thinking of times. I'm tired of the planning. And I just want it to be over and done with.
I don't know how to keep up the enthusiam. How do you keep up your enthusiam? Give me the secrets and insights into this. Is it just that I just need to look at this in a different way? I'm struggling but I don't know how to change it.
And I seem to be retreating into a hibernate mode. This weekend I spent relaxing, reading, ahhh the quiet, etc since Dave was in Oregon. And I was happy for it all. My dinner was on Saturday was I looked in the fridge, decided I didn't want to go out to get something, so I had some cheese. Later I had some crackers. Later I looked in the fridge and found some chicken to make. No planning-just threw whatever together. It felt good to do nothing! To be by myself, do whatever I wanted, or do absolutely nothing. Not have to consider anyone else. Oh, wait, I'm digressing or changing course. No-the quiet was good for my soul and was completely different than the other feeling of reclusiveness.
So, my friends, I'm not socializing as much due to my state of mind. It's not personal. Well not in that way. It's just me. After the Half and after the start of spring and the days getting longer, I'll come out of hibernation before training for the Maui Half Marathon.
Footnote: The above was written before I went to bootcamp last night. After bootcamp, I'm feeling a bit better mentally. They say exercising is good for the mental state. I agree, even though its so hard to get there. Gotta remember that what is good for me isn't necessarily what I want to do. At least not at that moment. Trust me. If I had my way last night, I would have stayed home and curled up in a ball and just be. But Dave wanted to go and I am a lemming so I went. And yes it's good for me.
I don't know how to keep up the enthusiam. How do you keep up your enthusiam? Give me the secrets and insights into this. Is it just that I just need to look at this in a different way? I'm struggling but I don't know how to change it.
And I seem to be retreating into a hibernate mode. This weekend I spent relaxing, reading, ahhh the quiet, etc since Dave was in Oregon. And I was happy for it all. My dinner was on Saturday was I looked in the fridge, decided I didn't want to go out to get something, so I had some cheese. Later I had some crackers. Later I looked in the fridge and found some chicken to make. No planning-just threw whatever together. It felt good to do nothing! To be by myself, do whatever I wanted, or do absolutely nothing. Not have to consider anyone else. Oh, wait, I'm digressing or changing course. No-the quiet was good for my soul and was completely different than the other feeling of reclusiveness.
So, my friends, I'm not socializing as much due to my state of mind. It's not personal. Well not in that way. It's just me. After the Half and after the start of spring and the days getting longer, I'll come out of hibernation before training for the Maui Half Marathon.
Footnote: The above was written before I went to bootcamp last night. After bootcamp, I'm feeling a bit better mentally. They say exercising is good for the mental state. I agree, even though its so hard to get there. Gotta remember that what is good for me isn't necessarily what I want to do. At least not at that moment. Trust me. If I had my way last night, I would have stayed home and curled up in a ball and just be. But Dave wanted to go and I am a lemming so I went. And yes it's good for me.
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